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i've cut my hair. it's toooo short. ohwell. now there's less strain on my darling neck.
anyway, today was interesting, my bro rocks. life rocks. and suddenly i remember the P word. p.r.o.m.o.s. i won't let this be my downfall. nonono. nooowayyyy kiddo. get a grippp.
we handed in our ipw "final" draft today. yeah! it looked quite good. haha. to us at least. got it binded at the bookshop. haha. yeah. 47 solid pages. woohoo. with one colour page. and a whole bunch of diagrams. we'll see wad mr chia says, improve it, and ipw is like.. 3/4 way done. did i mention that i don't quite like group evaluations. it truly doesnt quite reflect much. oh well. we'll see. but anyway, i've got my CT as our ipw supervisor, so yeah. quite good ya. he kinda understands us. (:
it rained all day yesterday. rain's got two sides to it. it can make you feel refreshed, like everything's being washed away and you can start anew. but sometimes it feels like someone's trying to drown you out, get rid of you. i've decided that there's 2 weeks before promos. its time to get serious, cos yeah, face it, i want to do well. this matters to me. i just need to prove it to myself. noone but myself.
have you ever felt like yu're watching a friendship slip away?.. awful aint it?
as i was talking to lydia today, i noticed how suddenly my hair seems to be stealing all the attention away from me. it used to be, "oh hi nita!"..or "hey nita" but now it's: sneak up behind nita, -patpatpat- on the head, THEN hi nita. haha. AFTER i realise that there is really someone touching my hair and its not just the wind or something. either that or: walk straight up to nita, eyes focused on hair, and ruffle nita's hair. haha. it's quite amusing. i'm gonna cutcutcut my hair soon. ahaha. my hair's got a mind of its own. but i don't mind. it adds about 3 cm to my height. (but after i come out of the toilet its 1.5 cm flatter due to the excessive amounts of water i slop on it.) haha.
my love for you is like the attraction of bonding electrons to my ever so electronegative atom. i will master you cos you've made me unbalanced by those net dipole moments you've created in me. you knock me over like the electrostatic attraction of the cation and the anion. YOU. i'm attracted to your phenomenal content of knowledge yet repulsed by the your thickness of pages. i WILL MASTER YOU, CHEM BONDING.
m.u.g.m.u.g.m.u.g...m.u.g.m.u.g.m.u.g...m.u.g.m.u.g..m.u.g....m.u.g.m.u.g.m.u.g....m.u.g.g.i.n.g.g.g...m.o.r.e. .m.u.g.g.i.n.g.g.g....a.n.d...m.o.r.e..m.u.g.g.i.n.g.
today was a nice day. so was yesterday. so nice. so slack. so...relaxing. but i'm so stressed. stressed that i'm not stressed.
i was just gonna go offline cos blogger was being scoofy. was complaining to mogi bout it, and had made up my mind to blog tmr, but oh well. since it decided to start up that's great.
okay..my bro went for an op last night..should be alright.. but they cleared it out and like apparently there's this deep crater like hole..so it was really deep. gross. poor guy. he'll be fine tho.
man my brother's been admitted into hospital. sigh. army's not going too well w him. he's got this sore thing, and there's like pus (i think there's an infection..) so they like rushed him to the hospital and he just went in for operation. apparently they have to clear it out, cos the sore's very near the base of the spinal cord and if it enters the bloodstream there's high risk of brain damage.
okay there's so much to say about yesterday, that i decided i shouldnt blog about it, cos i'll definitely miss out all the important itsy-bitsy details and it wont be an accurate portrayal of how nice it actually was!.. so it shall remain a memory to me, a great one at that. i love all my friends. they rock! ya'll rock!.. :D
last five minutes, had to blog on my birthday. haha.
haha yay (: nice day so far. haha.
contacts. after like....5 hours they felt like they were gonna fall out..but obviously they didnt..think my eyes are too dry.
yay! wad a great day..
woa. forbidden city is really really very good. firstly, the esplanade theatres rock. the orchestra was great, and the sets were fantastic, and the lighting made the stage look so good, and it really depicted the moods of each scene. actors were good, singing was nice, altho i couldnt catch some parts, the songs were wonderful, the lyrics were meaningful!..i need to listen to the soundtrack. and my seat was nice and comfy. greaaaat play man.
my right eye is super traumatised. contacts and my eyeballs don't get along! like hi, i was at the optician for like, ONLY thirty-five minutes or something and like..3 different eye-pple were like teaching and encouraging me while i tried to poke it into my eye. like HI.. how am i supposed to control my eyelids!..they have a mind of their own. involuntary action. they just keep blinking!..so sucky. i'm supposed to go tmr and try agn..sigh. when i'm "less tired"..but just checked my mail, and apparently i'm supposed to watch the play forbidden city tmr at the esplanade. sooo..yeah. guess the contacts will have to wait. till...later. much later. later. friday.
and i missed gilmore girls on sunday!!!!! -whiiiiiiine- i need someone with a tape. someone? anyone?
2 S papers. 2 S papers. as every day passes, it seems more and more impossible. lil gal, that kid is telling me to go mug. its mugging time. this is IT. this is the mugging period. everyone, realise it. the sept hols is next week. the INTENSIVE mugging's supposed to start next week. c'mon everyone, start the "warm up" mugging. SATS pple, hit that word list. NOW. or yu'll regret it.
to 1s03g,
REAL RUN> its worth it. a nice morning jog/stroll :D by the beach, and a nike dri-fit tee, free entry into sentosa, all for just 12 bucks. haha. not bad. its quite worth it. i'm sorry saus that we scoofed up that morning and forgot about your number tag. we all just didnt think about the tag..we were just waiting for yu to meet us at e start line.. sigh. sorry kid. but we had fun after the run, the swimming, and the bathing in the nicER toilets. altho the indecent exposure simply to use the toilet was a bit..indecent. like hi.. k nvm. there's a reason why i don't suntan. firstly, i'm dark enough, and secondly, my fats would scream at the exposure and panic and just expand, and make me look fatter. so e shirt stripping to get into rasa sentosa toilets was..a bit.. ahem. nvm.
so today, i got home, was very determined, opened up my bio textbook to respiration, and started reading my respiration lecture notes. fell asleep in about..10 minutes. decided to take a long long nap like from 945 to 11. and continue at 11, but at 11, i woke up and now i'm eating my dinner. nita's current knowledge on respiration=0. interesting. i had a dream, during my very disturbed nap. (some moron phoned and refused to put down even tho it was ringing for eternity cos noone was picking it up. i mean, like hi, we're obviously busy here. (me-sleeping..and i have no idea wad my parents were doing..) moron...mowon..) yeah anway, in my dream i was contemplating dropping bio, and in my dream, (now i'm beginning to think i was really half-awake), i really was super frustrated w bio, and i realised that bio and me didnt click. we just don't click. i mean. i really don't quite want to know about carbos. do i?., the heart chapter's the most interesting chapter by far. and it's not gonna be tested. like wadeva dude. but i don't want to drop. so not worth it. mebbe i should have chosen econs. but bio is interesting, in a way. and killer in others. i think that, considering i've fallen asleep (both intentionally and unintentionally) 90% of the time during bio lect, i'm sure it reflects something. mebbe bio and me will never meet. there's like a pericardium between us.
haha and to dedrick: "vous est le heros du ma vie. -anonymous" hahahahhahahahahhahahahahahaahahahahahhahahahahahhahaaha.
i went to the temple today. its beeenn really long since i last went to the temple. faith is good ya, it makes you feel better.
and there's survivor tonight. great. life is good. but recently, the exams, its catching us from underneath and emptying us of our spirit, our zest, our life. we can't let them do this to us, cos we're the ones ultimately in control.
i'm rambling on and on, but then again, this is wad i wanted a blog for. think about it, i didnt ever think i'd start a blog. when i did, i didnt think i'd update it this regularly. nurie are yu proud of me? haha. yu didnt believe i'd maintain this thing did ya. haha. ohwell
i love ya all. the world willl be empty without your friends and family.
power series. hahahaha. so much better than tutorial 14a/b, both of which i have yet to do.
i'm gonna wait and see. see wad this is really all about. cos frankly i have no idea.
don't you love your hair?
-grin-
gripping on to the realms of reality.
this past few days have been..so..so...mind frustrating. everyone's mugging sooooo damn hard. its not that i DONt want them to mug, i'm very happy for them that they're mugging, that they've got the drive, the willpower, the determination, the discipline, the love, the i-dunno-wad- but i mean, i'm just gettting stressed listening to them or watching them or letting myself slack. i don't blame anyone for turning into a mugger all of a sudden. we're supposed to. this is like.. one of our future deciding exams. S papers or none? scholarship? i can't stand it. i've somehow lost the motivation to learn.
well. i mean..it's not that i don't understand, it's just that it takes soooo much effort for me to master a chapter that it all seems so pointless. why stress yourself out. why bother? is this wad i really want. but i DO want 2 S papers. i DO want an A. like wth, why's it so hard all of a sudden.
where's that drive gone. WHERE. COME BACK. wad happend to, research, scholarship, overseas. wad happend? i feel like kicking myself. i'm so bloody useless all of a sudden. damn it.
GET A GRIP.
i'm so angry with myself.
get a grip.
if i've pissed some pple off these past few days i'm sorry.
anyway, today was quite a productive day..haha. i was awake, 99% of the time..only slept a bit in the lib during break. haha. and i borrowed a physics textbook..it's quite nice. (: carried it ALL the way home. haha..i'm proud of myself. i must understand this whole waves thingy..seems like its quite a big chapter.
anyhow, tmr's a short short day (: great. may mug w bano n crys in the afternoon in school. hopefully i get stuff done..haha. i have this habit of sitting in front of my work and "pretending" to do it.
okay i gotta scram. my dad was looking at me really suspiciouly wondering why on earth i'm online at this time in the night. haha.
btw i want to go to pelapah!! hahaha.. :D
bleah. i just realised the hols are coming to an end!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. homework!! not done!! aaaaa. aaaa. aa. a.
gotta cram everything tonight and tmr. aaaaa. aaa. aa. a.
thanks for your concern everyone, i think my bro gonna be just alright (: he'll be home tmr afternoon, and given MC. that guy's missing the worst few weeks of army. but i guess he's suffering for it too. poor kid. he'll be alright.
damn scary. wth man. he better be okay. that kid. can't believe its happening to him. sigh.
life is beautiful so beautiful.
Every morning, I feel the breeze
The sun washes over me..
The sound of water, the crashing sea
Is it only me..that feels alive
Its all ahead on me
anyway today was really great, i had a great time (: thank you everyone, thank you kamya for organizing it, and lydia for the earlier lunch one. haha. i had a great time. thanks again to everyone. really like e presents too..(:
okay must publish this before its too late.. (:
shall elaborate about today tmr (:
thanks nurie for your very very unique birthday call (: lovya kid and glad to know that they're keeping ya well fed and all (: really appreciate your call!! miss talking to you! [i really got a shock when i heard your voice, explains why i said hello 3 times.. (: ] thanks kid, and take kare of yourself!
and thanks to everyone else..love all yu pple.. tmr's gonna be a nice day. (:
anyway had ipw today. wahh..i ended up staying up until so late last night..thank goodness i had amanda to keep me company all the way.. (she was doing ipw too.)..and li'l gal who finally fell asleep in front of the comp. haha. and the occasional derekinase.
sigh..msn rocks..esp when yu have to do boring assignments and need pple to keep yu happy..
i love life so much at times and sometimes i feel so sick of it. i really wanna go overseas to study after jc. i need a change. i need to live my life.
i went to my grandma's hse for the day..but i only stayed for lunch and went out and came back later for a SECOND dinner. aiyoh i'm fattt. anyway, yeah i met my kiddy cousin today again, he's SOOOO cute (: and i met my other cousins n grandma n aunties n uncle.. yeah had a great lunch!! and then i was trying to fix my grandma's vcr..cos she just bought a new tv and it the vcr channels needed to be set again...but i couldnt do it!! it was so confusing. something wrong..couldnt tune into the non-scv channels..yeah then i got threatening sms-es from nizam..who said that pple were eyeing my chair in the lib..followed by a message saying that my chair was stolen.. so i rushed to the lib.. yeah..haha..had a hilarious time studying w kamya nizam n andee.. i did ionic equilibria! woohoo. yeah then we migrated to komalas after the lib closed..and ate a great cheap early early dinner because andee and nizam were tooo hungry. it was super early lor. like six plus. ahah...anyway the food was good. shall eat something else the next time we eat there (: i love cheap good food. yeah then we slacked beside the windy windy beach. took a long time getting out of komalas due to the reluctance from nizam and kamya who feared their notes would get blown into the sea. haha. but in the end we didnt studyy..we were eating ribbons (some crispy thingy).. yeah and laughing.. haha..good day. then i went to parkway w kamya after nizam n andee left.. i collected my lenses! i successfully put them in on the second try. i'm like HOW cool la. that woman was like..really nice and a good contact lens teacher. hahaa. yeah so now i'm wearing them contacts, gotta take them out soon. yeah then i went back to my grandma's hse, watched tv and ate AGAIn (good food, i couldnt resist..) yeah then we came home (:
good day huh? now i gotta do some ipw.. finish up my part. got ipw meeting tmr (: ahha. hope we get it done. alrighhhht gonna ipw now!..cya (: g'nite!..dawyl i'm not cmi anymore!
totally brightened up my day!..my 510 day!..weeeee.. rocks...stones... (reminds me of myan's cheer..)
alright, shouldnt blog for long, got back late. i'll see yu.
so about the contacts, i didnt go and try again cos i went for the play. perhaps tmr. or saturday. or sunday. hmmph. it can wait. hmmph. as dawyl said, i'm cmi. sigh.
tmr's like...my five ten day. so i'll be pe-fied. have to bathe? or change out to go for the play. means i have to bring clothes. so heavy. hmmmph. wwwhiiiiiiine.
today was the last day of odac, till after promos. sigh. wad an end. let's see if it works out..i don't really feel like elaborating.
wadeva.
scoof. chem tutorial, NOT done. showered, NO. contacts, scoofy. money, broke.
oh, but i just remembered something that made me happier. happy birthday pam, and happy birthday mogi!..in advance. of like..one hour.
anyway,wow wasnt today was exciting. physics lectures are becoming amazingly boring.. i think i learn more when i just do the tutorials after reading the chapter myself. the only lesson i was super awake for was bio extra lesson. our teacher rocks man. she's reeally quite good, and she's so nice. i actually look forward to bio tutorial now. and i'm gonna make an extra effort to pay attention and not fall asleep cos she noticed that i sleep a lot in class. tried to explain to her that it wasnt just her class..its just htat i was tired that week, but..she looked disbelieving..she said that i seem to be tired every week. not good not good. i will study bio harder, for her sake as well as mine.
alright, tmr's wed. so doesnt feel like a wed. but it is. batch meeting. then i gotta collect my contacts from parkway in the evening../early night.. then..i'm preparing myself for a night of chem tutorial. cos i didnt do it over the weekend. and my chem tutor isnt one to mess around with. she can make you feel real stupid sometimes. yet i think she's nice..cos she cares, and she explains.
alright. g'nite all.
nurie says hi to all. :) apparently its quite cold in canada, but she's getting used to it. and BTW she got upgraded to first class on her flight, but didnt sleep much. heh. way cool la. first class. yeah, she says the food's quite good and stuff there, still settling in..w 3 roommates. :)
nurie, yu still havent told me your address. yeah, email it to me, kid. alright. take kare nurie. i miss you kid. sounds like yu're having a good time yeah. that's great. :)
annnnd today is teacher's day. happy teachers day!..to my parents ;) and my teachers. yay. so its another holiday, i've got to do my maths and chem tutorial, cos that was my aim for the weekend. better go start soon.
sigh, i love odac.
complexities covered by a layer of skin, representing the common love for outdoors. is that true? is that all we are? i hate to think so.